// forward

i think that
in every relationship that ends
- with the exclusion of those that close with raised voices, slammed doors, enraged insides -
there is always an uneven distribution of affection.
the boyfriend likes the girlfriend more than the girlfriend likes the boyfriend
or the girlfriend likes the boyfriend more than the boyfriend likes the girlfriend.
one of the
two.
one is more heavily invested, more deeply attached, more fully immersed.
so the aim is
to find a person who likes you as much as you like them: a compatibility not only of faith, values, personality, aspirations
but of intensity.
more accurately, to find a person with whom an equilibrium of romantic feeling can be reached and, most importantly,
sustained
with
out
end; which at some point inevitably involves a shift into the realm of choice - a decision to love with longevity, with a stunning openness, indefiniteness, scope. maybe because of beauty, but definitely through and in (and not simply despite) ugliness.